Cyndi, my beautiful calico matriarch, left us this morning. It was not unexpected, yet it was still a shock. She did know when I was near, and she loved to cuddle. .
It is a bitterly cold day. At least to me. Perhaps because on top of other health problems I have been going through these past months, I now have a respiratory illness and a fever. I am in layers with a winter coat and freezing. It's been quiet here today except for Percy occasionally crying.
Just 5 days ago, I learned Barkley had passed away. (Farewell Barkley) He would have been a Funny Farmer if we hadn't already had the city limit of dogs (3). Merci left us the end of June and Rusty in September. Percy is now the only original furry sibling and he will turn 15 in July.
Our numbers are dwindling. I knew the day would come when they would most likely start passing away closer together. It's one thing to think "someday", another to arrive there. But I wouldn't trade my time with any of them for anything. Each one has been special.
Mr. Doug dropped by to pick up something of his today and very kindly took Cyndi's body to bury next to Merci. As with Buddy, Cyndi was returned to where I first saw her. She was such a tiny kitten with a huge wad of long, fine fur, living in Mr. Doug's engine hiding from his self-appointed " hunting" dog that wanted to make her the next meal.
Sorry, but today there is no pretense of fun with this post. I am sick and sad and hurting.
I hope you all have a great week. I'm going to continue our break and have no idea when or even if we will return.
Jan
with Percy, Micah, Marcus & Taylor
So sorry for another loss so soon. We hope your health improves. We are sad to see such a sad post. Lots of prayers headed your way.
ReplyDeleteWoos - Lightning, Misty, and Timber and Mom
We are so very very sorry
ReplyDeleteOh Jan, we are so sorry to hear about beautiful Cyndi. We were always in awe of her beauty. Love and hugs from all of us.
ReplyDeleteWe are so sorry for all your recent losses -
ReplyDeleteAnd sad about your health issues -
Sending warm hugz from NAK's Khottage -
We're so sorry. We know how hard it is to lose a furkid. We hope your own health issues get better soon too.
ReplyDeleteThe Florida Furkids and Mom Sharon
Jan, when I saw your post earlier on Amber's blog, I got an awful feeling. Cyndi's passing is so heartbreaking and there are just no words to tell you how sorry I am. Take comfort in knowing she is pain-free and watching over you from Rainbow Bridge. Now you take the time you need to recover and heal. Let me know if there is anything I can do for you.
ReplyDeleteLove and Hugs and Prayers.....
Hari OM
ReplyDeleteOh Jan.... there are no words, really, that can be a salve to this loss. That you are fighting your own health battle surely adds to the sorrow. Just know that you and Marcus and Percy and Taylor and Micah are held close to Blogville's heart. We can be of little practical use, but just knowing the care is there can bring some ease. Be well, dear lady, be warm and hug those remaining darlings as much as you can (and they will permit!). With Love. YAM xx
Jan, we are so sorry to hear about Cyndi. It’s never easy. We hope you’re feeling better soon, too. Sending lots of comforting purrs to you.
ReplyDeleteOh Jan, we are heartbroken about Cyndi's passing. We have loved her from afar all the years we have been your blogging pals, and I type this with tears in my eyes. You have suffered so much sorrow and loss recently, and with your health woes, too, we cannot even imagine what you are going through. Just know we love you, and send purrs and prayers of comfort to you. - Tracey, Kevin, Gracie and Ava
ReplyDeletePurrs of sympathy and paws of comfort for all of you. Miss Jan we are sending you healing purrs and hope you are better soon.
ReplyDeleteOh Jan,
ReplyDeleteI am so sad to hear about Cyndi! I have always thought Cyndi was such a wonderful calico sweetie! I am weeping as I write this, it has been such a tough year. I don't have the words to tell you how sorry I am and how I wish I lived close enough to bring over a casserole, soup and have tea with you.
Feel better my friend and know that I Love you. Sending you strength and virtual hugs
Barb
Oh awnty Jan, we're so sorry to hear 'bout Cyndi. She was so bootyful. We luvved her and will miss her terribly. Of course you will. But, she was well luvved and had the bestest life a kitty girl could have asked fur. Ifin ya' need anythin', just holler. We're sendin' bit hugs and purrayers.
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Dezi, Raena and mommy A
Charlee: "We are very sorry to hear about Cyndi."
ReplyDeleteChaplin: "She was very pretty and very sweet."
Charlee: "Run free over the Rainbow Bridge, Cyndi, and be sure to stop and look up our kitty sisters Pooh Bear and Trouble."
Chaplin: "And of course stop by Tucker's Everlasting Rainbow Bridge Buffet for a special kitty snack."
Charlee: "We send lots of purrs to you Jan and to all the rest of the Funny Farmers."
We are so very sorry that Cyndi has crossed over. Many purrs and purrayers and hugs from all of us at Forty Paws.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry about Cyndi - I'll miss seeing her on your blog too. Lots of purrs to you - you've had a rough time for a while now. <3
ReplyDeleteOh this is desperate news. No, you will not feel cheerful, or happy. If it was me I would be crying a lot (I do when pals die) and no one will expect you to do otherwise.
ReplyDeleteFly free sweet spirit. Cyndi you will be missed.
So deeply sorry, dear Jan. It's heartbreaking to see them all go and sometimes it's just to much😿Who can handle so much losses, I know I couldn't... Will send Healing Pawkisses and will ask the Angels to heal your broken heart. Soft Pawkisses to comfort you💗 Fly free beautiful Soul💗💗💗
ReplyDeleteJan, I am so sorry for your loss of beautiful Cyndi. You have suffered to many losses over the past few months and with your own ill health I can imagine how desperate you are feeling. Know that you are loved by so many fellow bloggers and try to take comfort in that. Love and hugs.
ReplyDeleteJan how my heart hurts for you..losses one after the other are such a kick in the guts..last year was mine and it hurts like nothing else..please take care and feel our gentle hugs from down under..adieu Cyndi so glad we met in the furs..������ Bev & Phil cxx
ReplyDeleteRIP Cyndi. This is awful news, and Jan so sick on top of it. Sending hugs and purrs.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry for your losses. Sending warm hugs and purrs your way with hopes for healing.
ReplyDeleteWe are so very sorry, Miss Jan. Our hearts hurt for you. Godspeed, Cyndi♥
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for your loss of Cyndi. Big healing hugs. It's so hard to let them go.
ReplyDeleteI do hope you feel better soon. Being heartbroken and sick is not a good combinations. Love you. ♥
I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful girl. So many losses so close together is so unfair. I fear that is what will be happening here as most of our kitties are over 13. I hope you feel better soon physically, I know emotionally will take a lot longer. XO
ReplyDeleteOh Jan, I am so very sorry for the loss of Cyndi. She was definitely your heart's cat, and I know you will miss her greatly. It truly has been a miserable, sad time for you and the Funny Farmers.
ReplyDeleteMy hope is you will regain your physical health soon. Purrs from the kitties, and my good thoughts for you.
Eileen
Dear Jan...
ReplyDeleteThe Opinionated Pussycats are sad to hear this news.
We wish to send lots of purrs and purrayers your way and to the Funny Farmer Crew.
We know that our beloved Nikita was among those welcoming her to the Bridge...that must have been some event, to be sure.
We wish to send purrs and purrayers re your physical health as well.
Elvira Mistress of Felinity
Sneakers the Texian Tuxedo
Friday the Bearded Lady
Dear Ms Jan,
ReplyDeleteWe love you and your stories, and hope you will return. Life is short, and heartbreak is inevitable. At our house we've lost many in short-time-span groups, and the ache is always there. But there are others who come along, desperate for love and a home. Please don't let Cyndi's loss prevent you from putting one step in front of the other. So many others need your love and your humor.
Sending healing purrs for your aching heart,
Love, Herman and Dori and the Wonderpurr Gang
I am so very sorry to hear about Cyndi, when we lose someone we love it's so difficult, especially after other losses that are so recent and you are still finding your balance with. Thinking of you with prayer and love.
ReplyDeletePurrs and prayers to Cyndi's loved ones, it's so hard to lose our family members.
ReplyDeleteGodspeed your journey to heaven Cyndi; a beautiful girl you are and always will be. We hope Jan knows St Francis stayed by your side every step of the way so you didn't have any suffering, so you weren't afraid and so you didn't feel alone. We are beyond sorry and send hugs and loves to you. Jan and the family you leave here on earth ♥♥♥♥♥
ReplyDeleteDai$y, tuna, mackerull, dude, sauce and boomer ~~~~~~
Cyndi, we will miss your beautiful face. Your mom loves you and she is missing you so much. We do as well, but you will not be forgotten and you are in your mom's heart forever.
ReplyDeleteJan I am so sorry you are sick with this infection...and I know your heart must be hurting with the loss of Cyndi your beautiful Tortie.
ReplyDeleteHugs Cecilia
We're so sorry for the loss of your sweet Cyndy. We send you comforting purrs and gentle headbonks. Purrs and hugs
ReplyDeleteWe are so very sorry for your loss of your sweet Cyndi. Sending hugs and prayers for comfort and healing.
ReplyDeleteJan I am so deeply, deeply sorry to learn about Cyndi. What a gorgeous girl. My heart is breaking for you, you have had too many losses over the past year...I am so deeply, deeply sorry. (((hugs)))
ReplyDeleteWe are so sorry to learn of Cyndi's passing, and that Jan is sick. Please accept our purrayers for everyone. Cyndi has reunited, young and strong, with all her Friends Who Came Before, and will be keeping an eye on all the Funny Farmers.
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteWe are so very sorry to hear that Cyndi has crossed her Bridge.
ReplyDeleteWe are also sad to hear that you are unwell and we purr like crazy that you will get better soon!
Just know that Cyndi had a great life thanks to you.
Purrs Georgia,Julie and JJ
and mum Nancy
Jan, I am so sorry to hear the news and that you are hurting. You look after you, and take one day at a time.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear about your loss. It is always so devastating when we lose a loved one to the Bridge.
ReplyDeleteEven when we know it's coming, a loss is painful; perhaps more so because we know, we expect it. Godspeed, Cyndi.
ReplyDeleteWe're very sad to hear about your beautiful Cyndi kitty. Sending lots of hugs and cocker spaniel kisses.
ReplyDeleteHope you feel better soon, Jan. There are a lot of cold bugs going around lately. Stay warm.
I'm so sorry to hear the sad news. You and the FF'ers are in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteOur Best Purrs Of Comfort to you all. What is it about Winter that seems to call us to The Bridge? We feel your loss, and offer our thoughts of peace to you.
ReplyDeleteWe're so sorry. Cyndi was a gorgeous girl and loved by everyone!
ReplyDeleteSo sorry for your loss. I hope you start recovering your health soon.
ReplyDeleteWe are so sorry. We are sending lots of purrs and hugs. We also hope you feel better soon.
ReplyDeleteI know only too well the heartache in losing the elder cats and dogs. Sending hugs and purrs to you Jan in your loss.
ReplyDeleteJan, I'm so very sorry for Cyndi's passing, and for all your losses. Sending hugs and purrs/purrayers to you, and healing energy as well.
ReplyDeleteKim, Nicki and Derry
We are so very sorry for the loss of your beautiful calico girl, Cyndi.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry.
ReplyDeleteJan, My heart hurts for you. I am so sorry about Cyndi. It is so difficult to lose one but to have to deal with more than that is heartbreaking. Please take care of yourself and know we love you.
ReplyDeleteJan, we are so very sorry to hear about Cyndi and all of your losses this year. It is so hard and we want you to know we are sending soft purrs to help comfort you in the sad time. We lost Mal earlier this year and Momma still cries.
ReplyDeletePurrs,
Charlemagne and Tamar
Dear Jan, I am so very sorry for your loss. My heart breaks for you. Sending hugs.anesha
ReplyDeleteOh Jan, we too are so very sorry to hear about all your recent losses and now your being ill. So much so close together to have to tolerate. We hope you get well soon, and know that so many of us can truly feel the pain you are going through. Be well and focus on yourself.
ReplyDeleteSweet Jan I am so sorry to hear about your precious Cyndi and all the other sweet fur family members you have lost in such a short period of time. Every time we lose one a part of our hearts go with them and it is so hard. Sending you warm, gentle hugs and hope you are doing better very soon.
ReplyDeleteGentle wooooos,
ReplyDeleteNuk
Oh Jan, we are so sorry to hear of Cyndi's passing. We have been thinking of you and are so sorry for all the losses you had this year with your precious ones, sending you our most gentle purrs and keeping you in our hearts and prayers. We love you and the Funny Farmers and think of you often.
ReplyDeletexoxo Clooney, Neytiri & Karyn
Praying.
ReplyDeleteKeep on writing, great job!
ReplyDeleteThinking about all of you.
ReplyDeleteIt is always sad to hear of the passing of a furry pal. We are sure he is enjoying himself patrolling the pearly gates.
ReplyDeleteDog Speed,
Sherman & Gemini
Thinking about you this morning and thought I would swing by and say hello. I hope all is well in your world.
ReplyDeleteHave a fabulous day and weekend. ♥
Hello Jan, we've been away from bloggy for a while. One of the bloggies we wanted to read is yours and learnt a sad news. So sorry for the passing of Cindy and Barkley. They are now running together with other angels a the rainbow bridge.
ReplyDeletePinot xo
Jan, I'm not seeing my comment and I wanted to send my condolences and thanks for your kind words. What a brutal winter and I hope the lighter warmer spring restores hope and health xox
ReplyDeleteSweet Jan, stopping by to let you know I am thinking of you. Warm, gentle hugs sweet lady.
ReplyDeleteWas thinking about you this morning. I miss you. Hope all is well in your world. ♥
ReplyDeleteWe are sending our purrs and prayers to you, and hope that this finds you better, than when you last posted. We hope to see you soon once more on the blogosphere, though want to let you know everyone is here for you.
ReplyDeleteGentlepurrs
ERin
We would like to honor Cyndi (and also Rusy) in our Rainbow Memorial show this year. Primarily for our FB crowd, but about 10 bloggers will be in it this year! Condolences on the loss of this ravishingly beautiful kitty!!!
ReplyDeleteAnd now à des month later it's my turn Kim went To the rainbow bridge maybe they Will mère each other ! Thank you for your kiné sourds !
ReplyDeleteI wanted to thank you for your kind condolences upon the passing of my cat, Parker. I know you have had your losses recently, so I need not say anything about feelings, except to thank you for warming mine.
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